Levi x Reader - Master Of My Fate Part 13 (FINAL)

(AU Note: For maximum effect, listen to this)

Levi and I were sitting on a bench in the park. All was quiet, with only birds chirping and the sound of a light breeze gently coaxing the grass into undulating wave motions. We didn’t speak but it was as if our souls were harmonizing, creating a beautiful tune. Our hands were intertwined and my head rested on Levi’s shoulder. Soon, as always, Levi got up and started walking towards the forest that appeared.

“Can’t you stay?” I asked Levi.
Levi turned and smiled, before disappearing into the forest… again.

I awoke to the sound of my alarm clock ringing. I rubbed my eyes, and tried to fall back to sleep, but as usual, I couldn’t. The spot beside me was empty and I felt a deep sinking feeling yet again.

I went to bed I was thinking about you
Ain't the same since I'm living without you

Pushing myself out of bed, I got ready for work in a methodical, almost robotic fashion. I made myself a cup of hot tea and while drinking it, I looked at the surface of the swirling liquid, trying to imagine how Levi looked when he drank tea in that unusual manner of his. But somehow, the details were getting vague.

All the memories are getting colder
All the things that I wanna do over

I found it laughable. I couldn’t remember these things during the day, yet at night, everything became crystal clear.

When I see you in my dreams at night
It's so real but it's in my mind

I never wanted to wake up but my body instinctively would bring me out of that perfect dream due to some surrounding sounds.

Don't wake me
'Cause I don't wanna leave this dream
Don't wake me
'Cause I never seem to stay asleep enough
When it's you I'm dreaming of
I don't wanna wake up

Finally, I got dressed and left for work. Just another meaningless day in my life.

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Both Annie and Jean had noticed the change in me and although they had tried to ask me about it, I only gave them vague answers. Eventually, they gave up but every chance they got, they would do small little things for me, like bringing me coffee or fetching some documents. I appreciated it but there was really nothing they could do that would bring my spirit back.

“(F/N),” Annie’s voice brought me back to reality.
“Oh… sorry Annie. Were you saying something?”
“…. It’s been a month.”
I looked at her, puzzled by her words. “A month since..?”
“Since I last saw you… alive.”
“What – “
“I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing to follow the flow… to follow your heart. If that’s what makes you feel happy and… alive,” Annie looked at me with an expression of mutual understanding.

“Even if… I throw away… what’s precious?” I asked slowly.
Annie deepened her gaze, “Only if you think the sacrifice is worth it.”

I looked at her and then back at my screen. Finally, I made my decision. Slowly, I got up from my chair and embraced Annie tightly.
“Thank you, Annie…. For everything.”

Wordlessly, I ran out of the office, leaving a speechless Annie.

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The rest of my day was spent on refurbishing my home. I hummed softly while reminiscing the times that I spent with Levi, how I had met him, my first impression of the rude and incredibly blunt psychologist. I chuckled to myself as I recalled how irritated I was when he asked me those personal questions.

And how it felt when I finally found you
It's like a movie playing over in my head

I remembered our first date, our first “accidental” kiss, his surprise birthday party for me that did not go as planned. Then, my mind conjured up our final moments..

Don't wanna look 'cause I know how it ends

..and I had to blink back tears as I recalled Levi’s peaceful expression and his last words to me.

All the words that I said that I wouldn't say
All the promises I made that I wouldn't break
It's last call, last song, last dance
'Cause I can't get you back, can't get a second chance

“This time, Levi, I’m making my own fate,” I whispered resolutely.

My preparations were done and I dusted my hands off with a satisfactory look on my face. With this, the entire apartment was now sound proof. Now all that was left were the final touches. I leafed through the CDs on the rack and finally found the one that I was looking for, Secret Garden’s album. It was their songs that Levi used to help me improve the quality of my sleep.

I slipped it into the CD player and thumbed the forward button until I reached the song that I needed. Once “Sleepsong” was playing, I laid back on the sofa…

Nothing to do but keep sleeping longer

…and closed my eyes, a small smile forming on my lips.

I’m coming with you, Levi.

Don't wanna stop cause I want you back

The forest opened up, and I saw Levi waiting for me, a smile adorning his face. He stretched out his hand, and I gladly took it. Slowly, we walked into the forest…

… while the notes of the song played on… for eternity.